They left for Peking,this morning.PP,Sky and Turtle.

They left us a postcard,leaving their gratitude and blessing.

For these days,we were together.Together,we climbed the Thai mountian.Together,we toured the Confucious Relics.

And,the Baotu spring,the Daming lake.

We left our call of the nature on the top moutain,we left our trace on the Quancheng square,we left our excitement on the ourdoor barbecue,we left our memory in the camera,in our mind.......

For them,it might be a happy journey.For me,it's rather a experience of rediscovery.A rediscovery of Jinan,a rediscovery of people,and of myself.

For once,I found that the night sight of Jinan was so beautiful.For once,I felt that our friendship could be rooted deeply.

We'll meet in Peking soon!no,unit!

I promise not to shed tears,never will I

but please allow me the last time

In fact,no one will notice the few drops and its transparent trace.no one

In fact,I'm not intended to make me noticed by anyone

In fact,I'm the one always being omitted

My dreams,being broken somehow

others,fly up high

mine,pierced,balloon out

mine,descend,fall down

pierce by me,by others

by me,exactly

but,stand up

stand up

I believe one day i can fly

now ugly-duckling

though cannot be swans

at least

I want to be free and happy duckling

forever duckling

forever dream

forever fairtale

for me

forever

 

I'm sort of not myself these days.

I feel so frustrated.

I'm far behind and further.

I'm loafing,idling around,

killing the time

I'm not intended to muddling through,

yet I did,

I'm suspicious of myself,

looking for a mirror,

seeing myself distorted.

those once in dark,

break and grow

reflect millions of gleams

strain my eyes

keep my eyes shut

I see an inside world

familiar and fantasy

deep and profound

I know I'm reserving

recovering

and then,

open up

stretch out

let the glimpse of hope be billions of sunshine.

that beautiful sunshine

not far there

waiting for me.

 

 

一直以来,我觉得自己都是一个大好人,是真的好人.为了别人的事,宁愿不断挥霍自己的时间.

高中的时候,尽管不是班里的number one,别人遇到不懂的题却总是问我,也许只有我才会牺牲学习的时间,牺牲休息的时间不厌其烦地给他们讲题.

一直以来,我发现自己不会拒绝别人.永远学不会.

自己困的要死,作业一点没做,却陪着并不很铁的朋友跑东跑西.

一直以来,我没要过什么回报,也从没有过什么回报.

当我真的自己有事,那些曾经被我帮助过的人却离我远去.我能听到的只是淡淡的我还要学习呢,我现在有事,我今天好累.

一直以来,我都在告戒自己别想什么回报,不要搞"主观为自己,客观为别人"那虚伪的一套.

可是,但我真的身陷囹圄的时候,除了少数的她们和他们,还有谁能够拉我一把呢?

一直以来,我都不愿意承认自己在被利用.

一直以来,我都没有想过要利用别人.

现如今,只能告诉自己说,珍惜那些真正的好朋友吧,只有他们能在我最需要的时候伸出手拉我一把.

他们是Julia,laura,appolo,hippo and philosopher.

 

I was misunderstood?but,somehow,I didn't want to explain.

let it be,let it go.

A true friend will know how I am.yet a ....

time will tell

 

01.最近在看的电视 – 超级女声

Today's orientation day.Seeing so many freshman here and there,I've got a real sense of being a sophormore.

We now take burdens,really

Now,many tasks are waiting for me.Read <<general introduction of common law>>,<<the catcher in the rye>>,produce newsreport,prepare oral tasks,preview and review the intensive reading........a little dizzy,now.

But,remenber you're a girl welcome challenges.

But,keep it in mind that you're neither stupid nor slack.

And,for certain,you're a generous person,try to be tolerant,then respect and then appreciate what around you.

And,I know you're always energetic and happy.

Never let it be

let it up,up,up

for you can feel its pulse and handle it.^_^

Saturday morning:making posters,from 8:30am to 15:00pm,exhausted,but really fulfilled at our masterpiece.

Saturday afternoon:playing badminton with a veteran,gradually recovering from being sleepy.

Sunday morning:go bitting,coming to and fro coz of repeated failure,fortunately,it works at last!surf other's blog and comment.

Sunday afternoon:12:XX~14:40 plus one hour in the morning, done extensive reading work!miraculously,that's really scanning,though no mark left in my mind,but at least,I finished it.I never study for study,what I believes is to be efficient on one thing and then spare much more time to enjoy life!

Julia called me saying that she also found that long-time study is no good,and now,though devote less,she earns more,much more happiness and free time,and unexpectedly,she was sure to get the scholarship! congratulations!

never study when I'm not willing to,study right before the deadline with concentration and dedication,above all,interest!Cool!

Pipa,Julia,xie,mouzi,come on!I know you're all smart girls,just balance your time and make best of it!

 

 

as today's oral class has been cancelled,we only have one course on the prelude of this term.

whereas,the only lesson counts much,for it's extensive reading  and the first book-length article is selected from Hawking's the brief time of history.the new teacher looks serious as he himself mentions,yet I like his analysis of this abstract and profound article with more sense of philosophy and culture.

yesterday,I communicated with many many firends,then get the conclusion that most people have a "new term symdrome" or maybe identity crisis.they get confused and frustrated about themselves,their strengths and weaknesses,and,their objectives in life.As for me,also,before I entered  BfSU,I set up my mind to be a lawyer,but after the enrollment,my faith somewhat shook.For I find that our english lessons just outweigh the so-called major courses,moreover,I came to realize that there would be so many impediments for  a female greenhand lawyer even to  earn a living.All these have never dawned on me before.So,I think till now,I should be more objective to revaluate myself  and to draw a line between dream and reality.

yesterday,Meipig shared her confusion and resolution with me.~~though in different situations,we're all facing the cross-road where there're too many paths to choose from.in this new environment,away from home,from parents, sometimes we are really at a loss but let's just regard it as a passage to develop better understanding of ourselves,and then,choose the way that fit us best.

I'm  looking forward to the national day break.Why?am I over dependent?I know I should expand my own world and endeavor to be on my own.But,when I came across a sentence that"when my world is expanding and new options are opening for me,my parents world shrink and options narrow",I just wish that we will never be independent,because when parents and we exchange roles,it's also a signal that their world are shrinking. I know there is no eternity and stability,and I know I favor the stability as the "haves"(not financially),yet perharps,the time when I muster up courage to face the music is when I become metally mature.

our universe cannot be static and unchanging.Man cannot be waited by time and tide.but still,something eternal exists--spiritual things,as we always say that friendship is eternal and love can never die.to some extent,it cannot be true for an

individual,as we know,man carry nothing to the heaven.but,these things are really a treasure accompaning  your whole life,they're the most comforting things when you disma and,when all the wounds began to ache,they  served as magical ointments.

.........................

quitely,

it flows away.

it tiptoes up  stairs

it slips down the way,

it deems every corner,

without

being  noticed

it fades the fresh hue

it collapses us in the worm cave

craving for those flowers once in blossom

it handles us

yet

we squeeze it,

and

we handle it.

                     By Cindy.C

 

 

 

 

结束了这个假期的最后一个聚会,开学进入了到计时.

时间就这样悄悄溜走,

想想假期前的计划,旅游,游泳,学吉他...完成的似乎寥寥无几.不过,过的还是简单而开心吧.快开学了,心里变的复杂起来,有期待,但更多的,是不舍.无论如何,还是家里最舒服,最温暖.

看看大家的博客,于是就看到了一个又一个精彩的回忆,想想自己,唯一的感觉就是自由,有了自由,我就有了能量.希望大二能充实一点,多参加一点活动,用心做好每一件事,特别是学生会的工作,不能再混了.学点自己喜欢的东西,对于学业,不知该怎么评价自己的大一,究竟是还好还是什么都没学到,这样想来,真应该感谢考试,否则真的什么都学不到了.

崭新的大二,崭新的开始.

就是喜欢这种感觉,一切清零重头开始.对我而言,过去的荣誉或失败都是一种负担,过去了,决不再想,决不再提.

我,活在未来,就有了崭新的生命力

加油~

Many things happened in this period of time.

 

The big party with high school friends.

         however hard we once swear the darkest life in the damned hell and promised we would dersert it without a bit of nostalgia,we cannot help turning back and steal a look.Whatsoever,we're all through it,together,buddies.the focus of the party is Fun,definitely a party animal,a characterisitc and energetic tomboy,now in Nankai university,chatting and cheering up and clicking cups with almost everyone in the class,holding a glass of beer in her hand.Fun,at the first sight her,my eyes light up.Dressed in exotic style,timber-brown clothe,duck-green full-length skirt,several highlighted bracelets,all give me a sense of coming to Hawaii.Thanks to Fun,Selina and our monitor-Kun ge,the atmosphere of  party keeps high.Every one is in a good spirit,dumping the words brewed in heart for a whole year,girls,much more thinner,refuse to eat more at the price of the money,though its self-help dinner.but of course,I'm not included.mmm,seems everyone start a new life,comrade,let's go!

 

 

recently,Tang poems appeal to me,love its curtness and beautiful rythem,the essence of Chinese as I may call it.Cool!

 

  Last night,after 11 hours' bumping,with sleep coming in snatches,I came back.

    born and bred in Jinan,I still recognise "Nantong" as my hometown.Where I can find my identification,kind of mind harbour,only these two cities can fit in.And now,I'm in one of them.